When Life Gets Hard

We all have struggles, major ones where we no longer know where to turn or how to act. What do we do when life gets hard?

Today, I’m writing about things that are deeply personal in nature. It scares the crap out of me, but I feel that I need to share this experience. I ask that if you choose to comment please do so respectfully.


At times, life is hard-really hard. We all feel overwhelmed and alone without hope of reprieve-doubly so for those of us with special needs families. But it doesn’t have to be that way. Here’s how I recently found a sure fire way any of us can gain a trustworthy support system.

5 years ago the hubster felt the need to return to college for a graduate degree, which resulted in our  living on $13,000 or less. By the end of grad school I was a burnt out wreck. I was unbelievably exhausted, getting out of bed was my personal Olympic event, my head was so fuzzy I couldn’t speak or write coherently-constantly stuttering and tripping over my words. I had to get dinner ready by 5:00 or it wouldn’t happen at all, due to exhaustion and nausea. I’d have to lay down on the couch and rest.  Sitting at the table, let alone making a meal if it was still needed was too much for me.

Being religious we prayed and I asked the hubster to administer priesthood blessings (LDS practice) on multiple occasions. The only answer I received was “This would be for my learning or understanding”. After 8 months or more I was fed up with Heavenly Father and told him so,

‘I think I’ve got whatever the heck it is you want me to get thank you very much!’

During that same time I went to the Dr. but all he did was take tests. After 6 months he said, “Go try a fibromyalgia specialist, I don’t think you have it but they may have answers for you.”

Make my own destiny

I decided to turn to google instead. After a little while I tailored my own diet and listened to the spirit. After 3 months of staying on a strict diet, meditating, and routine running I was healed. I enjoyed 2 months of the most glorious health I’ve ever had, only to realize my son had autism.

I spiraled down,





Never quite to the point of being nauseous on the couch by 5:00 every night (I will NEVER allow myself to go back to that), but my foggy head was back and this time I didn’t care.

I put everything into researching for my son. If I can figure out how to get myself out of an autoimmune disease I most certainly am going to find a way for him to overcome autism. I don’t care how many Dr.’s say it’s impossible. They didn’t have an answer for me either, that doesn’t mean it isn’t possible. We’re working like crazy so Sir Bounce-a-lot can grow up, eventually living on his own.

While it’s been hard, it has been doable. I’ve learned a ton, even why my made up diet and lifestyle healed my auto-immune disease-the first time around. The tricky part has been how to implement it for my son, since he can’t give me the feedback I need.

Life is Hard

Then 2 months ago the kiddos and I came down with a cold, which lingered and lingered and lingered. Seriously cold’s only last 2 weeks right? Not more than a month!

We all have struggles, major ones where we no longer know where to turn or how to act. What do we do when life gets hard?

I started to get frustrated that I still hadn’t kicked my health issues this second time around or found better answers on how to help it work for autism. So I asked for a blessing and I was told I was to learn about the atonement. I kinda rolled my eyes and thought, really? I believe in the atonement I know Christ can save me. I know that I’ll rise again. This is one area I know I’m good in.

A week later, I was still struggling so I asked again, and I was told to learn more about the strength of the atonement. This time, instead of being mad at Heavenly Father for not taking the illness away I decided to go read about the atonement. I landed on the hubster’s book Believing Christ, by Stephen E Robinson.  I’ve only read the beginning, where it doesn’t talk about believing in Christ, knowing his history and who he was, but in believing what Christ has said.

We all have struggles, major ones where we no longer know where to turn or how to act. What do we do when life gets hard?

Do I believe that Christ can save me? Personally? Or have I sinned too much? Do I think my situation is too hard for him to help with? It was an interesting thought, do I believe what Christ has told me, or am I in essence calling him a liar?

When Life Get’s Hard

A few days later I was just overwhelmed with all the things I had to do, my energy levels, still trying to make this crazy diet kid friendly, not being able to write regularly, not staying on top of therapy for my son, basically, feeling inadequate in every possible way.

I silently pleaded,

‘Why? Why does it have to be soo hard. I can’t do this anymore, it’s just too hard.’

Then I heard that still small voice, penetrating at a level I’ve never felt before, say 2 words.

‘I did.’

Not ‘he did’, or ‘Christ did’

‘I did.’

Then I had a stream of images come to my mind. Images of our Savior’s last week on earth. His triumphal entry into Jerusalem. Having to deal with fame, with unstable living arrangements, betrayal, flaky friends, impossible physical ailments, losing loved ones to death-his own, false accusations, causing a mother’s pain, loneliness and possibly depression. All culminating in his willingness to give his life for those he loved.

I realized that I was being handed a resume. The most outrageously, overqualified resume ever built. Here was a man who will get things done, who knows how to counsel and run a team, and he was being underused.

I realized there was so much more to the atonement then life after death, although that is definitely huge. I realized I’ve been trying to do everything myself, not because I was worried about my salvation, but because I didn’t see another way to get stuff done.

Then I heard 3 more words.

‘I got this.’

I felt all those worries and doubts leave. I knew I had a new partner upon whom I could rely.  He took the Lion’s share of the work and promised it was going to get done. I had no doubt it would.

We all have struggles, major ones where we no longer know where to turn or how to act. What do we do when life gets hard?

I bear witness to you today that our Savior lives, that Jesus is the Christ, and that the atonement is far more than just our being raised again at the last day. It is about the journey. Christ’s life on earth was also his time to prove himself. To prove he has the skill set we need a partner to have. All he asks is that we turn to him and allow him to use those skills on our behalf. He knows you by name, He loves you and He wants to help you-today.

When life just gets too hard, remember you are not alone. When family and friends flake or make the burden heavier, remember there’s always One you can rely on. Remember, He wants to help you. He has the most amazing record for getting it done. He gave His life! The ultimate sacrifice to ensure the Father’s work would be accomplished and to give us a sign that we can rely on Him-no matter what! There’s not much more that can be asked and yet He did it.

If you have an impossible task in your life, delegate it to your Savior. He will get you started, and help you find the hidden steps along the way. It may not feel like the safest bridge crossing in your life, but the view will be spectacular and the ending oh so worth it.


He’s got this.